Here's something to end the month with....
I CHOPPED OFF MY HAIR! 


Yes, it's really insane, pretty insane, and I think I'm insane too.
But might as well, at least, it marks the day that I'm going to find back the positive me again.
Today, I realized that my positive piggy bank is almost going to zero, while the negative piggy bank is filled to the brim, and this is bad. Everyday, I'm always so sad, worrying for what that has yet to come, not cherishing what it's already mine, and the most important part is not making someone day's better.
Like wts have I been doing all this while!?! Yes, it's true that many have failed me and I've no reason to trust or believe in them, but why should I blame myself because of their wrong doings? Cry for them, be angry with myself because of their mistakes, crack my brain to solve the problem they have created. TELL ME WHY AM I STUPID? Okay, I'm not stupid, I'm just being softhearted. Sometimes to think of it, I have also the right to be happy, the right to do what I want, the right to be a good person at times, the right to who I want to be. Why should I live in someone's shadow, or expectations right?

Just because of the responsibility I have now, doesn't mean that everything I do must be correct, and every actions I make must be of good example, people make mistakes right, of course I would try my very best to minimize my mistakes. And those who judge me when I made a mistake, stop and think if you haven't been making mistake yet, if yes, I would gladly welcome you to judge me. Don't be someone who always talk talk talk and do nothing anything about what had been done. If you got so much energy to talk, why not put it into action, but if actions seems a little to troublesome for you, then please shut up.

Phewwwwwwwwww. So much better now.

Well, since it's all said and done. Say hello to Xianying again. :) And hello to November!